Did Self-Realization Free You? From What?
Yes of-course! Self-Realization freed me from a whole lot of things, beginning from ignorance of the Self, then the sense of doership, and also from the passions of anger, pride, deceit and greed. The process of freedom is of-course still on-going. However, Self-Realization primarily freed me from so many wrong beliefs that I had regarding myself. And it also freed me from a huge bunch of wrong beliefs that infused fear, tension and worries inside me for nothing. It freed me from the habit of giving opinions and judgement over little-little things in life, which created myriads of entanglements I was not even aware of. And also, it freed me from suffering unnecessarily over matters that I considered serious, but with the knowledge of Self-Realization, turned out to be very trivial.
Would you like to know how this happened? If yes, here’s my story…
From the knowledge I had gathered since childhood, I always knew, ‘I am a pure Soul.’ Yet, ‘I am John (you may please insert your name here)’ is what prevailed in my belief almost every time. Why so?… I didn’t quite understand. I desperately longed to have the awareness of the Soul all the time, but I couldn’t figure out what was holding me back.
Just then, I got to know about ‘Akram Vignan’ that helps us attain Self-Realization in just two hours. This made me quite curious. I watched a few of their daily satsang programs that are telecast on television. This kindled in me a very strong desire to meet Pujya Deepakbhai. A couple of our family friends, who knew about him, also told us, ‘Go to Pujya Deepakbhai, you’ll attain your spiritual goal in no time.’
Then one morning, my mother heard on television, ‘Pujya Deepakbhai is arriving in our town at 10am for a 4-day satsang programme.’ We hurried up and went to the venue. The 4 topics, scheduled for the 4 days satsang, were: 1. Mind (Mann), 2. Intellect (Buddhi), 3. Consciousness (Chitt), and 4. Ego (Ahankar). Pujya Deepakbhai beautifully explained how, in any inner action that takes place within, these four components have a role to play. When inner action finishes, the outer action of physical mind, speech and body begins. And the Soul (the real Self) is pure consciousness, whose function is to constantly see and know the outer and the inner actions with equanimity.
Now, when a job role thrills us, how excited are we to grab that job and excel in that role? I felt something similar, and even stronger, while listening to Pujya Deepakbhai’s satsang, because ‘to see and know’ is the function of the Soul, which I always wanted to do.
Therefore, I attended the two-hour ‘Gnanvidhi’ session and attained Self-Realization.
Pujya Deepakbhai said, “Self-Realization has awakened the Self-awareness, which will never leave us now until our ultimate goal of liberation (freedom) is attained.”
Here, along with ‘who am I?, I also understood, ‘who runs this world?’ This, in particular, freed me from the wrong belief that used to now and then peep into my consciousness, ‘God did this and God did that in this world.’ During Gnanvidhi, I got to know that God is my own being, who never does anything except seeing and knowing everything. This knowledge dissolved my sense of doership from the core. Now, my effort remains to follow this knowledge, that the Enlightened One has graced me with, in my day-to-day worldly life.
Let me now tell you post Self-Realization, what all it freed me from…
Pujya Deepakbhai says, “When we attain Self-Realization, we attain awareness of the Soul. However, the experience of the pure Soul is unclear and indistinct. Thereafter, our effort to attain a clear and distinct experience of the pure Soul/Self begins.” This effort is best done by remaining sincere to Gnani’s instructions and getting free from all mistakes, one by one. Thus, began my journey towards ultimate freedom by attending the daily satsangs and remaining attentive on my flaws.
Now, religion frees us from indulging in bad deeds and encourages us to adopt good deeds. I also went through that process during my childhood days. However, I did not realize then that when and how, very silently and subtly, a lot of ego got built up during the worldly interactions; the silent ego of ‘I am good and nice, I am right, I am different from others, and many more ‘I am’, the list goes on and on..’ After Self-Realization, as I began to listen to more and more satsangs of Pujya Deepakbhai, I gradually realized that these very beliefs of mine kept me entangled all through the day.
It occurred to me how this was the reason why my awareness of the Self (the Soul) was not able to bloom, as it kept me busy in creating a nice image of mine in my mind and in people’s mind too, and then protecting that image from any kind of damage, and constantly polishing that image to help it get beautiful day after day. The Soul is the real Self, and I all along was wasting my time caring for something that was not my-self. Absurd, isn’t it?! Self-Realization freed me from this illusion and stopped me from committing this crime further! Of-course, the process is still on-going, but yes, I am definitely free from the enchantment of creating a good impression of this worldly self now.
Only when anger-pride-deceit-greed (kashays, passions) leave, will the bliss of the Soul arrive
“Presently, the anger-pride-deceit-greed that lie within are in the form of coverings over the Soul. When one attains Self-Realization, thereafter new coverings shall no more come, and old coverings will slowly, slowly give its effect and leave. When not a single covering remains over the Soul, the Soul is liberated then. The Soul, with no covering remaining on it, an Absolute Soul called Parmatma”
In one of the satsangs, Pujya Deepakbhai explains, “Somebody says bad for Ramona, ‘Ramona is a bad person. She is so and so.’ Then does any effect take place? You get hurt. So, anger arises.
Due to ignorance, you believe, ‘I am Ramona’. That’s why when somebody insults Ramona, at that time, anger comes out. And if the same bad words are said to Ramona, but ‘Ramona’ is some other person (they are referring to some other Ramona, not you), then you will not feel any bad effect. When somebody insults, at that time our anger will come out. So, due to ignorance, anger is there.
And by knowledge of Self, Self-Realization, if somebody says bad words to Deepak, so I will know, ‘this is with Deepak, not with me. I am pure Soul. Hence, I don’t have any anger.’ Due to knowledge of Self, I can remain in a state of bliss all the time. So, anger is due to ignorance only. Not only anger, pride, deceit, greed, lust, everything is due to ignorance. By knowledge of Self, we can come out of all of these enemies-anger-pride-deceit-greed.”
This bliss that Pujya Deepakbhai is experiencing, we can experience it too
On listening to these enlightening words, would you not yearn to attain Self-Realization and taste the bliss that Pujya Deepakbhai is referring to? I am in the process yet, but in so many years, of my own experience, I can surely say that in the company of Pujya Deepakbhai, the Enlightened One, with the help of his grace, we too will reach that stage one day, when we shall be free from all kinds of sufferings, when we will have attained the ultimate liberation. Such is the grace of the Enlightened One, such is the miraculous freedom that Self-Realization presents to us!!!
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